i dont get to decide

Back before me and my wife got married .i was living in Alabama .The job i had at the time i worked wed -sun and was off on Mondays and Tuesdays .A lot of the days i had off coincided with my cousin "Mama D"off day .Mama D is a little younger than my mom but me and her oldest daughter are very close in age and we would play together while mom and mama d would drink coffee and visit. any way Mama D and me would ride to Montgomery and shop or run errands for my Aunts or take them to there doctor appointments . I treasure those times .my life was a lot less busy and things were simpler for me.but i really enjoyed the time me and her spent laughing and talking about different things . She is a great lady that has worked very hard for her family .she goes out of her way to help family and friends in need .she has three daughters of her own and i would hate to guess how many kids she has let stay for extended periods of time at her house . I love her like a mom. i found out a few days ago that she has lung cancer .she found out due to complications from a surgery she had as a result of a wreck last year. she has been in the hospital for a couple of weeks .they started her on chemo Monday .and hopefully she will be out of the hospital in a week . her prognosis is not very good it hurt my heart to hear what they had told her. doctors don't know everything and anything with an illness like this is a guessing game .but still they told her a month if the treatment doesn't work and a year if it does . I love this women she has loved me and my family .I have ate many fine meals with her. i have slept under her roof many nights .I have faith that God can heal her cancer .but i don't get to decide if he will or not. regardless if Mama D lives another fifty years or if she passes tonight she is and will always be in my heart until i pass from this life also . She is a strong lady ,and the center of her family .My life wouldn't be the same if she wasn't a part of my life.