weary soldier

He fights in the battlefield ,his armor weighing heavy on his weary body .His heart feels the victory that his eyes can't see.Why, looking at the carnage that surrounds him,the maimed ,the wounded and the dead .His nostrils filled with the smell of blood. The stench of death is not as disarming as the foul smell of fear. He is brave ,he must fight on . They are coming from every angle but he well trained .He shows no mercy as he knows he would be shown none from them . His enemies fall by his sword ,his shield blocks the angry strikes against him .His fellow soldiers fight beside him .Some are as stealthy as he but some fall to the enemy.It saddens his heart to glimpse his brothers in arms fall but he doesn't let that stop his fight.This is not the time for sadness,this is the time to fight.When all the battle is over they can mourn and celebrate.Still he fights . The victory will soon be theirs,it is in the grasp. The enemy is no match for the preparation this soldier and his brothers in arms have. The enemy flees back to the hills back to the hollows .They may try to launch another attack at some point but today the soldier releshes in victory . He looks toward the heavens and gives thanks to his God .Now is the time to mend the wounded and bury the dead. He and his fellow soldiers have fought well ,and have their honor intact .They will live to fight another day.Every man will taste of death ,eventually but the spirit of the soldier in the service of the Lord will be victorious even in death .

just a thought

We went and watched the movie the Avatar as a family event .It was a good movie the ,3 D was light years ahead of the last movie supposedly in 3 d i watched. But part of the story line was that the native people the "NavI" .could through this tree connect with their ancestors . I have thought on this subject several times as to why some things seem so familiar and easy and others seem very foreign . You know some people might be a gifted carpenter for the simple fact that they were passed on maybe like something genetically from an ancestor that caused them to have better skill at the onset .just a thought .but i have seen places and had deja vu ,or i have been in the middle of a task and felt the same thing like i have done this before . just thinking out loud .as it were

ho ho ho

tis the season or so they say .I enjoy Christmas to a great extent .But have found that the older i get i see the joy i have is from my kids .I love watching them get and actually enjoy playing ,reading and using the things they receive. I am making memories they will have and cherish as they get older.I will no doubt cherish the Christmas memories we have made together as i age. My sister in law cooked our Christmas Eve supper it was a wonderful meal with four courses ,she did a great job. My wife read the Christmas story to all the young kids .The time we spend together is not ever perfect ,but it is nice and we all get along pretty well. Not to mention we have good times as a large extended family . I looked at some old picture albums from my childhood and remembered all the family get togethers i had as a child . I am glad to have those memories down in my heart .I know that one day as my kids look back on our get togethers .I am certain they will feel joy ,and good thoughts ,and appreciate the times we have had . .I am thankful for the people in my life both friends and family .I am thankful for the ones that have gone on to their reward that touched my life .Merry Christmas to all .

sons of change

I have watched him grow from child to young man .I have loved ,nurtured ,taught ,and tried the best that i know to help him along his way .He is in between the little boy he was and the grown man he will become. He is on an emotional roller coaster ride .One that i don't care to ride and one he must be a captive passenger on.He is happy at times ,sad at others and confused a lot of the time .He is in the midst of change at all time .My love for him amazes me at times .His harsh words that he says from time to time wound my heart. I have to remember he is not pushing against me. He is trying to push to find who he is ,who he will become. I am here for him .I have spent more time with him than i had with my father. I hope he will one day truly see what i have done for him .I don't expect it to be easy. But I pray for his sake that it will be worth it . Amen .

east to west west to east

Today we went to my sons class Christmas party .We brought cup cakes half were red and half were green. The kids were surprisingly well behaved throughout the party.It being a party I thought they might be a little rambunctious ,but all treated their teacher and the parents that came with respect. I did notice one thing in the classroom that i found amusing it nothing to do with the kids .on each wall was labeled the direction north ,south ,east,west that was supposed to corresponds with the wall .but the east wall was clearly labeled west ,and vise versa the west wall was labeled east .I found this amusing ,and quietly told my wife that's why during a conversation with my son about which way our house was pointed he got east and west backwards. I could not bring myself to point this out to his teacher ,she has done such a good job with them. I have seen her improve through the years .She truly enjoys my son and he truly enjoys her . The great teaching she has done to all the kids in her class .Both the good ,the bad ,and the trouble makers .I will forgive her for having to readjust his east and west . For she has help give him confidence and purpose in his self .God bless those that really teach our kids not just curriculum but how to treat each other well in life.

Beautiful Angel chapter 10(a work of fiction)

Lanell passed into the darkness again. "What is happening ? I had this all worked out . " she thought to herself out of the fog that clouded her mind . She was neither cold nor hot ,but she was scared and she was pissed.The need had not been fed.She shuddered at the thought of not getting to control her life anymore . HEY!!! HELLO!!! She hollered . Silence was the only return she got . She managed to slither and slide herself to some wall of whatever room she was in. "Probably a basement . "she thought . Suddenly she noticed a faint noise in darkness.Could be a rat.Or it could be something larger. Swish ........ she heard it again ,but this time she heard or felt the faint sound of breathing .The bastard(s) are watching me .Out of the darkness they are watching ,savoring and anticipating.They probably have those night vision goggles . HEY!!! I know yall are in here ,no sense acting like you can't hear me .Lanell said as firm and steadily as she could . Still ,silence met her plea. What are we gonna do ,what do you want from me !! Lanell said more frantic than she wanted to sound .Nothing but the faint breathing sounded in her ear. Stephen is that you !! she demanded . Finally a faint laugh ,but to her surprise it was the lilting laugh of a female . Who the hell is Stephen ? Lanell jerked at this response."The guy that was with me when,well you know more about what happened than i do "spoke Lanell . Well i don't know Stephen, but unfortunately Derrick is dead in your vehicle ,I used that pretty knife you had in the back of your vehicle.I told Derrick if he wouldn't be mine and only mine then he wouldn't be any ones . I guess he did not believe me ,I gave him time . But he was still drawn to tramps like you .Said the voice in the dark ."Whats your name?Are you Judy ? "Asked Lanell . "Who is Judy ?" the voice asked. "Who I am is not your concern ,but what I am is your concern .This Stephen and Judy you speak of i don't know .I don't know what you were planning with Derrick but they will eventually find him in your vehicle dead as a hammer with just your fingerprints and his in there. They will know who you are ,and they will try to track you down. But you know what sweety ? " the voice out of the darkness spoke.Lanell took a long breath in and exhaled slowly mulling these facts over." What?" Lanell said grudgingly . With that the lights came on .It took a couple of seconds for Lanells eyes to adjust to the sudden change.But then she saw who the voice was coming from .She was a beauty . Long legs ,brunette hair ,penetrating green eyes ,but that wasn't the smile of a novice across her face.This woman had dealt in death before ,and she was looking to deal out death again .Lanell was alarmed to say the least .She struggled at the ropes that bound her ,she screamed NO!!!Not like this !! With that the nameless woman was above Lanell .She slapped her prisoner upside the head .Then pulled Lanell by the hair .The nameless beauty spoke again "Don't worry sweety the cops won't ever find you .With that she sliced Lanells throat. The blood started flowing. Lanell lie on the ground her life slowly draining away ."Because the ones this Angel takes care of are never heard from again. For I am your Beautiful Angel of Death." spoke the nameless beauty . Lanells enchanting eyes now looked all around but the darkness overtook her one last time .Lanell thought of her life and all the death she had dealt and smiled just a little .Her eyes wide open as death had its final laugh.

Beautiful Angel chapter 9 (a work of fiction)

When they pulled out of the parking lot Lita turned the radio on.But kept the volume low,so her and Derrick could converse as it were."What do you have in mind pretty lady."Derrick smugly asked." I thought we might ride out by the river. i saw a nice secluded spot down there." Lita cued back at him with a roll of those tempting eyes ."You sure you don't want to go get a room or something ?"Derrick asked . She flashed that smile and batted those eyes at him .Why Derrick my back seats fold down comfortably and won't it be fitting to get the um" ride of your life "in the back of a fine ride such as mine. He smiled at her and said ."What ever you like pretty lady."With that he leaned over and nibbled at her neck and ear lobe. She acted like this excited her but what really excited her was the thought of killing this worthless piece of garbage. They arrived at the road by the river ,it took a little longer to get there than she expected.The traffic had been a lot slower than in the day .They crept along the back road .Derrick had pulled out his cell phone and made a quick text."Who was that too your ...your girlfriend?" Lita asked with a smile .Oh just a co-worker asking me about a report ." Derrick told her smiling. But his face showed a little uneasiness.It was probably him telling Judy he was having to work later than he thought .Lita thought to herself. He leaned over and kissed her full on the lips ,his tongue darting in hers. It was a nice passionate kiss ,and on any normal woman it would have stirred the heat up .But the kiss did nothing for Lita ,she had one goal in mind .Why don't we ease out and into the back seats .She said .He didn't protest .Hey Lita could you leave the radio on please ? he asked. "You bet ." she said back . In her mind she thought" whatever puts you at ease ." She got out of the drivers door and headed to the back seat which she folded down . Derrick patiently waited as Lita prepared the backseats .He entered the back and started to kiss her lips ,then moved to her neck. She said. "Derrick why don't you take your shirt off and lay down ,let me do the work." Her eyes worked their magic even in the pale moonlight .Ah OK ,if that's what you like .He took off his shirtand laid back .Lita rubbed him just right .She leaned over and kissed him while starting to unlatch his belt buckle ."Just relax and close your eyes Derrick . I have this all under control .".she purred at him.He did just as she said .Lita could feel his excitement growing. She eased on top and put just the right amount of pressure on him .She leaned over and caressed his lips lightly with her left ring finger.Lita swooned up knife in hand ,oh this was gonna be great she thought .But in that instant the door behind her flung open and a sharp pain hit her neck ,after that darkness over came Lita.
Lanell did not know how long she had been out.She awoke to darkness all around .She was bound at her hands and feet .Her head pounded and she felt groggy .One thing was certain this wasn't a police station,and this wasn't going to end well.

Beautiful Angel chapter 8 (a work of fiction)

Although the pic he had on his "SALS" profile was shot with him wearing sunglasses and at a good distance away. Lita Sky recognized Derrick/Stephen the instant he entered the door . He looked to be not quite six foot tall maybe a little less than 200 pounds . He looked kinda nervous or maybe just unsure that I would show .Lita thought to herself. Derrick surveyed the room ,oh yes he spotted Lita with the white scarf around her neck.Derrick looked very pleased at what he saw . He swaggered to the table ,flashing all the charm he could muster .You must be Lita. He said as he extended his hand .Lita flashed those eyes and answered him with a nod of the head and a smile .Derrick took this as a good sign and leaned over and gave Lita a little hug,before he took the seat across from her. How was your trip? He asked. It was very nice indeed.Lita replied with a little flirty smirk across her face .She had smelled the odor of liquor on Derrick ,it was a pleasant surprise. It would make her task all the more easy . Derrick smiled back at her telling her how glad he was that her trip had been nice.Is your work up here going well? He asked. Oh yes it has turned out to be a very profitable indeed .She stared into his eye and run the toe of her boot seductively up his leg .But we didn't come here to talk business did we? Lita slowly said.Her eyes were working their magic. Derrick was practically hypnotised by all this . I guess you came for a good time.He said with a smile.That i did indeed .Lita said. How about we get out of here and see what happens .Lita said with wink. That was all it took Derrick was at her side walking out the door. I am parked over here .He told her. Lita pulled back a little . Well how about we go in mine ,If ya don't mind .Lita said .It would make me a whole lot more comfortable .She mildly pleaded . Lady's choice i always say .Derrick laughingly said. Lead the way Lita ,take me to your willing ride . They crossed the parking lot and came to her Cherokee .Derrick pulled her close and gave a kiss to Lita .This is almost to easy Lita thought in her head .Derrick get in I'll drive .She said . "OK what ever makes you happy ".He said. You will find out what makes me happy very soon Derrick .YOU can count on that. Lita said in her teasing voice. It wouldn't be long till she would be able to fulfill her need . There was something odd about Derrick and she couldn't put her finger on it .Maybe it's just that they somewhat knew each other .This change in routine was fun but she felt slightly edgy . It would all be over soon for mister cheater...

Beautiful Angel chapter 7 (a work of fiction)

Lanell Anna Hawk had been a busy bee indeed,since she had arrived in Lights Way .She had found Stephen a wonderful final resting or rotting place as she liked to think of it .It was close to the river ,but far enough off the beaten path that it wouldn't be found . She had been in contact with both Judy and Stephen on the Internet.Stirring the pot to a brisk simmer with "Derrick" as it were. She offered Judy comfort ,support,and mild distractions from the skirt chasing husband. "Lita Sky" had set the date up with Derrick .They would meet at "Pulp of Joe " a coffee house /used book store that was near the turn off from Lights Way to St. Louis. There would be no need for him to be drunk this time .She had brought some tranquilizers to give his cup of joe a little kick.Lanell thought to herself. They would meet at eight and it wouldn't be long before she would take him close to the river .She was feeling very proud of the work she had put into this hunt. Lanell drove by Judy and Stephen's house she wanted to see it in the day . It looked nice but unremarkable ,The yellow paint was in great shape ,the hedges trimmed just right .But inside there was Judy a woman who she dared call friend in some way .Judy needed to be set free and "Angel/Lita " was gonna give that gift to her.

It was getting late in the evening when Lanell started the real transformation into "Lita Sky " . She pulled her hair down and fixed it just right .She applied the make-up that Lanell would never wear .That low cut blouse ,tight pants ,and those zip up boots would never see the light of day on Lanell but Lita was loving it . She looked at the mirror one more time before she left the hotel bound for Pulp of Joe .Lita liked what she saw staring back . She made her way to the dark blue Cherokee ."The hunt is on" .She thought to herself." Yes indeed it is . " The ride to Pulp of Joe was exhilarating ,her senses were heightened .She had told Derrick that she was looking to have a good time ,he said he would try to show her one . What a good time she was gonna have . She pulled towards the backside of the sparsely lit parking lot .It was Thursday night so fortunately there was not but a few people there .Lita stepped out of the Cherokee making sure to hang white scarf around her neck that she had told Derrick she would have on .She checked her makeup one more time ".Uhmm uhmm "she thought to herself .Lita looked hot ,Derrick did not stand a chance .She made her way into Pulp of Joe .Found her a small table in the corner ordered herself a nice latte .Patiently she waited on Derrick ,her anticipation growing with each passing minute . She did not have to wait long ......

Beautiful Angel chapter 6 (a work of fiction)

It had been close to two and half months since Lanell had been on her last date or hunt.But now the time was right .She thought to herself. The long drive ,from her family farm ,and the wonderful life she showed the world in Louisiana, was very soothing to the need that now firmly held her thoughts. She was on the hunt and savoring the time till she would reach Lights Way. Lanell thought of how different this hunt would be. Her chats with "Derrick" had become increasingly sexual in nature,and she had set the trap well .It did not take her long to persuade him to meet her in four days. That would give her plenty of time to prepare for him. She had her hotel booked, and would find where she would be planting Stephen/Derrick soon enough.
Eight more hours of driving and the real work would begin.Lanell thought to herself .She was starting to tingle and get that feeling the thrill of the hunt. Judy had no idea that soon her philandering husband would soon be breathing his last breath. Judy was still telling of how powerless she felt to stop her husband and his flings ,affairs what have you. Judy loved her kids and she loved Stephen Harrison .But Lanell first felt sympathy for Judy ,but now she had grown to feel a not love but deep like for her. The need that lived in Lanell would not allow love to enter in.Lanell thought of of all these things as she entered the quiet suburb of Lights Way .It was very late as she drove through the neighborhood .She finally found the street and slowly passed the very nice light yellow colored wood frame house that Judith Harrison ,her children and that undeserving husband called home. Time for sleep now she thought ,for her real work starts tomorrow . Lanell made her way to the hotel she would call home for the next few days .She settled in her room unpacked her clothes ,checked to make sure the Internet was working on her laptop .If not for Stephen she wouldn't have brought it ,but she would have to stir the pot sort of speak with it over the coming days .This was very different from her usual hunt but it was proving very satisfying .Everything is working good ,Lanell thought as she crawled into bed and sleep took her over.