today

today has been a good day work wise .we had an outage at work and got the task accomplished as they wanted.and in a timely manner. But in the back of my mind today had a certain melancholy feel to it .Mondays are hard with having to get up at 3:45 am to get ready and make the two and a half hour drive to work .I don't like having to be away from my family to make a living ,but it is what i have to do at this time.but on a somewhat somber note today marks the 29th year since my father passed from this life .People always talked about "closure" when concerning the loss of a loved one. But i am here to tell you as long as you have memories of the loved one there is no such thing as closure.you just learn to deal with it. the initial sting eases over time but its still there. I dislike the little makeshift roadside memorials you see along the highways .because it makes the people that knew that person think of their friend or loved ones tragic death. I like to have happy memories come up in my mind about friends and loved ones that have went on to their reward .not the place where their life was tragically snuffed out. so today for me is kind of like those makeshift memorials it reminds of what tragic end my father came too.so i tried to think of fun things me and him did together,wrestling around in the living room,fishing on occasion, making science project ,throwing football,baseball ect. i wish i had my dad with me now he would love my kids .my youngest is very sweet ,goofy ,but he can really be temperamental like my dad .my dad certainly wasn't a perfect man or a great role model.but he was a good guy all the same . all and all its been a good day .sure do wish you were here ....